Hanging on!!

Hold on. Don't fail off that cliff. Especially if you dont have to.

Stop painting time

I hate painting. Its like one of those things that I do and then afterward I'm like what the hell. I hate getting paint on me. I hate touching the paint brush. I hate the random

How stupid is going to class the rain??

Why in hell do they make us go to class when its fucking raining? I mean really, our textbooks get wet and fucked up, we get wet and fucked up and everyone gets pissed off. Seriously as a people we should fight against this stupid rule of going to class not matter the weather. Sorry this post is mainly to vent about how cold I am today. Please enjoy the rest of your day. Thank you.

Problems with Friends

Friends are one of the most amazing things in this world. They are always there for you. They care bout you. Most good friends would do anything for you. But like always people always have problems with friends. Here are some things that maybe you could help on.

My friend's boyfriend is the worst kind possible. He is controlling, he hurts her, he won't let her enjoy life to the fullest. She wants to get out but... she is scared. This guy she loves, this guy is everything to her but she doesn't know how to handle it. Whats she to do?

I care bout my friend a lot. I want her to be happy but she deserves way better than him.

Another one is someone I know fall for a friend. A friend who made it clear they didn't want to be in a relationship right now and wanted to live life. Now everything is so awkward even though the person I know is completely over the fact that their friend doesn't feel the same. That person says they are an extremely honest person but why can't the awkwardness and get over and have the friendship.

Last one is the friend/acquaintance scenario where you don't know whether someone actually is a friend or someone who just hangs out with you just because and not because they geninuely wants too. I know it happens to all of us for those people reading. I hang with you because I want to, if I didn't, I wouldn't even bother to.

Looking toward the doorway

I stand

Alone and confused

nothing in my hand

no love of my life

just everlasting cold

my mind races

turn left

turn right

which way do i go

in this internal fight

My heart bumps

my skin tingles

no one is here for me

The lovers past the doorframe

they kiss and embrace

their love

infuatution

radiatiing from their skin

My eyes burn

for i remember

a love like that

once in my life

They depart in external bliss

sealed with that one simple kiss

smiles on face as they depart

knowing their hearts arent apart

into the scence comes the hated

lovers once

but no more

fuming and seething

with anger within

hoping to destroy all good

in them

Again alone

i stand in the doorway

swaying back and forth

as time passes

who am i?

A lover, a tyrant or a fool?

Im none of those

I'm me and im happy that way

Thank you all reading. Love you guys in a nonsexual and intimate matter. Enjoy life. Post your problems with friends and help others overcome them!!!!

He who laughs last laugh best.

I bet when Perez Hilton first started his blog a lot of people didn't start to read it. Now look at him, he is making bank by posting social gossip on the internet. That is so amazing. Think about it. When people tell you, you won't make it, you tend to so in truth, he who laughs last laughs best.

An example is my English teacher last school year didn't like my writing causing me to absolutely hate it. Now im starting a blog and writing a book which only the prologue is finished but everyone says is so frickin' amazing and im thinking bout posting it on here. Actually here it is:

Prologue

Day long and day short

Night end and night start

Be here and be fair

For all those who really care

Look towards the heavens above

The source or unending love

Look towards the ground below

Hear the screams of foes

Look Upon the Starry Night

Heart aching from all the strife

Seems like life is one big fight

A cold jab with a knife

Look Upon the sunny day

When there is absolutely no shade

No way to hide the pay

Of wearing no sun block today

Look upon the stormy sky

Gaze behind and say goodbye

For your time is close and near

Time for you to disappear

Who are we if nothing but savage beasts? We humans are no better than the monkey who breaks out of the pen at the zoo, the alligator in the house that attacks us, the tick and mosquitoes who sucks the blood of others and weaken them. We fight to live, we live to love, we love to hate, and we hate to fight. The racism, the bigotry, the insecurities of ourselves and others control how we live our lives. From the hazing in college to the prostitute working to feed her kid back home, the strength to help others in need always takes the backseat to doing nothing at all.

Seemingly so, it appears pain is a part of life. A great bowl of sorrow, heartache, disappointment, what some call the tools of the devil, takes over causing the tears to fall at night. Hurting, some people just let it go, put on a smile, lie and say they are fine, letting everything build up inside of them. Others just let the pain take over, start to think that life isn’t worth living, and commit suicide.

A loss of those we loved most makes us do crazy things at time. Make us go mad; lose focus, causing us to forget who we really are deep inside ourselves. We give up and decide to take the plunge. It seems as if God, the cause and creator, the great I am has left us to dry up and all our hopes and dreams die as we shrivel up.

Always in my life have I felt as if I never fit in. I was popular but lonely as if no one truly understands me. My best friend was no longer around and I had only myself. My parents treated me like crap. We always fought because my parents thought what other people thought were more important than how I felt. When my friends needed me I was always there but when I needed someone they disappeared like water vapor in the air. They became invisible, heartless, unless I did for them.

Truth is I'm a monster. Inside of me, there's so much darkness, pain, sorrow, lack of love that wasn't there before. I knew at that moment it was time. Looking in front of me was the woods and I ran threw them to the place I needed to go, the plateau in the mountains looking out to the valley and the lake of the mountains.

Violins played far off in the distance of my mind, for I have a great love for music. I looked forward to the horizon that God had prepared before me gazing at all the beauty, the majestic scene that opened my heart. The plateaus of the Ozarks, the waters of the lake, the fresh smell of the summer air just overwhelmed me. I started to think about myself and all the things I held inside me. My identity, my feelings, my memories all dwelled in my heart, causing me to ache in pain. Everything started to build up inside me like the remorse I had for all the regrets and mistakes I made.

I thought about the times I spent looking and glazing at the stars, thanking God for all he had done for me. I thought all the times I prayed, all the times I did what was right. Where were my blessings? Nowhere to be found.

He took my friends from me, my mother’s love, and killed all the dreams I had. He let the wedge of disappointment let in all the evil throughout the world, my world. He allowed war, hatred, bigotry, and the most horrible things to enter my life. My tan skin flushed as the anger built inside of me and I made up my mind to do what needed to be done. I took a moment and reminisced on my life.

Tears flooded as I stood underneath that cedar tree that was on the edge of the plateau I stood as the sadness of my memories flooded me drowning me in misery upset and hurt. I looked toward the sky, my eyes bloodshot from the salty moisture excreting from them looking at the clear blue sky. The birds were chirping. People wake boarded, laughed, and enjoyed life. My family appeared to have a joyous time without me. My best friend was dead, probably happy that I was not there. Sighing, the let my last tears fall cause it was time for the end to come. Mystified about how happy the day seemed when my day was a nightmare, I couldn’t take it. I walked three steps forward and fell...into the nothingness of air.

I fell and my heart lifted. I felt free. Everything went into the place where it belonged. Rushing past me, I saw the rocks past and the water coming closer. I was ready. I wanted everything to end. I wanted all to go black and nothing to be seen again. The water came closer. My lips curled into a smile while I braced for the impact. Starting at my toes and continuing to over my head the water covered me and I closed my eyes and waited to die.

It’s kind of hard not to panic when you start to die but you just have to not chicken. Pain filled my lungs. My head hurt like crazy. I had to breathe. Swallowing the water, I knew it was the end no turning back now. I was too far from the surface. I said my goodbyes and asked God for forgiveness.

Over in the murky distance, while I was close to the end, I saw these five women of immense beauty staring at me. These could not have been ordinary woman no one ever has been this beautiful on the outside before. One of them caught my eye and my body tensed. I had no control. Life for me ended that second. Falling before me, darkness covered all. The walls caved in.

My name is Wyatt, Wyatt Lennox. My life had been nothing but pain, hatred, and sorrow. That day marked the end of my legacy. I died.

Or so I thought…

If you guys enjoyed that and if like you want to talk about something you have overcame, comment please. It can be anonymous! Vent, let go of all your fustrating, be true to you and be free. This blog is for you.

Thanks for reading

You, Me, We: What are we really?

Look at all you have

take away what others bought

take away what others gave

take away what you found

take away what you bought

look at what you have

family, friends?

Take away

those who never talk to you

take away

those who weren't true

take away

those who you were there for but

weren't there for you

take away

those who love you but

you don't love

take away

those who have hurt you.

look at what you have now

yourself?

you don't have yourself

you are your worst enemy

God?

God loves

but works in mysterious ways

the truth of the matter is

what is 100% truly good

that yours??

At this moment,

I don't think it exists

Who I am doesn't matter. This isn't about me. This isn't about you. This is about all of us. Whether we are in the out crowd or the in crowd, we never truly are one hundred percent ourselves. We are shaped by our parents, our friends, our lovers, our brothers, our sisters, our beliefs, our morals, our values, but why can't we be one hundred percent different? The fact of the matter is we all are the same. We all are the jock, the rebel, the cheerleader, the supermodel, the bitch, the hypocrite, the freak, the compulsive liar, whether we like it or not. Why don't we want to admit it? I don't know. Its even hard for me to admit. I don't want to be the one who disagrees with everything, you don't want to be that but we do it. All of us are so insecure with ourselves all of us at different degrees but still we hide it behind ourselves. Let go.

Let go of who you think you have to be. Be who you really are. Whether gay, a criminal, someone into bestiality, a whore accept it. I mean when it has a negative connotation we don't want to accept it. Sometimes what seems bad is actually really good.

Think about when you get hurt badly by someone where people can see it in your eyes and sometimes by marks on your body, people look at you, listen, care. Random strangers show that they are somewhat concerned. Why can't we love all, look at all, listen to all, care for all? Are we so damn selfish that when it doesn't seem to fit us we cant care.

Families accept your kids who fail school, who get arrested, who are homosexual, whose views differ for yours. Friends same goes for you. People need each other more than we would like to admit but once we admit these things maybe we can overcome all of this.

Thank you for your time reading this I will have another post tomorrow. To close out, i live you with this:

Hold close

all you canc

don't be afraid

to make a stand

believe in all

real and true

know that i

really love you

whether you know me

or not

i will be there

if you ever a caught

in a moment

where you need

someone to care

to be there

to see

I hold you

close

inside my heart

i always near

never far

whether you are

here for me

Im here

you will see

Once again, it matter nots who I am. I am you, me we. And we are all me.